Pictures.

My pictures, if i do upload is my life through my eyes. I think moments are to be treasured. If our phones lose memory, they are deleted. So i rather upload it on the internet so it is not gone. This seems to be judged as to be vain . Oh well. this is what i have to face in order for me to keep my ways to survive alive. I do not live to please others. I am me. Dislike me? Fuck off. I rather be alone than have some low life around me.

UGH. Mid night rant. wtf man. go die and kill yourself darren

lol crazy thoughts.

Time to go sleep.

Short life

Well, im back to blogging which means.. its back to over thinking and no other ways of expressions. Unless through my typing.

I cannot handle it. I give up. And i do not want to live on this earth anymore. Everyone seems to find that one person who they are fated to be with. ME? FUCK IT. LOL.

Maybe im just the last one who will. And probably im just being dumb and only looking at this and not the other parts of my life. But i dont know anymore. I am very tired. So so so very tired.

People are making me more blur and lost everyday. Im so tired.

I just wanna give up. But i keep pushing on. Somebody gave me a reason to live. But that person just left my life.

I have no reason to live. I try to find and create it...but it is just so hard and impossible.

I know people will miss me. But why do i stay alive just cause of them? I do not find happiness in that. I do not find happiness in living. I CANNOT find happiness.

Would you forget me? Of course you would not.

But great artists only are known after they die.

Im not famous, im not someone known. People wont even remember i exist after this post.

Open that "words" document on my computer if one day i just disappear from your lives. If you notice.

Only true friends and people would know my password.

I'm gonna end this here. Crying myself to sleep as usual.