Battling Anoerexia

The battle is still there and is ongoing. I have begun to use the excuse of diet to excuse myself from eating lunch. The countdown of weight has started. I am going to lose more and more weight more often now. I guess the battle is not over. I shall try to begin anew. TOMORROW! I SHALL GAIN WEIGHT TOMORROW.

Work

So this is how it feels to work.

Working as an intern has been an eye opener and reveals to me the working life and the actual behind the scenes of the work that many people put into in the creation of the great things that consumers consume in their daily lives.

Sometimes we think that things come to us easily or you think that not much effort is put into the delivery of the services or products. It actually goes through a long process of thinking, meetings, productions as well as great deal of communication amongst certain members.

Beyond that, drama amongst coworkers is nothing new to me but this new environment is an interesting one. A new form of drama in forms of revenge and payback is quite bad. I used to work as a retail associate in Victoria Secret and the coworker's drama is one kind. Now that I am an intern, I am now faced with a new form of drama. The "Darren helps you but not me" dilemma occurs. As an intern I do not have a set scope of work to do besides helping out with small tasks and report to my supervisor (which is a COOL guy). He does most of the work and only gives me the smallest of small tasks. COOL. Which gives me free time to do this and some stupid rubbish i do behind the laptop screen ( LIKE THIS ).

Okay bye :P

REVIVAL

Having more time during my work, I decided to start blogging again :P hahahah!

Last time this blog used to be my escape and my diary! Now lets try to put together some reviews? I'm not sure how to do this. But lets give it a shot. Ehehehehehe. #Selfpromotion

Lets start with something small.

Recently, me and my friends took a trip to AcmeBar & Coffee in Troika! BUT FIRST LET US TAKE A SELFIEEEEE

This was my first time coming here and GOSH. THE AMBIENCE IS LIKE FUUUUUAHHH. Damn nice to sit and chill and take photos #goodlighting

*ignore bad photography skills* BUT IT WAS REALLY NICE.

Can model also.

See the ambience! The environment is perfect for a gathering and meeting of friends to just chill!

I ordered this! Caramel Macadamia!
We went there for desserts session after a long walk around in KL

I told you good lighting!! for nice photo editing too! :D

My friend ordered this! Sizzling brownie & oreo Ice Cream! AND OHH BOY, it was sizzling alright! Damn! It tasted so nice omggg. Mouth flowing of salivaaaaaaa.

It is one of those cafes which has started to get ready for Christmas season and i have to applaud them for the effort! It was definetaly a nice place to relax and enjoy good company with good decorations around!

For more information:

Acme Bar & Coffee (ABC) 

Ground Floor, The Troika,

Intersection of Pesiaran KLCC and Jalan Binjai

50450 Kuala Lumpur

Tel: +603 2162 2288

Email: reserve@acmebarcoffee.com

Opening Hours: Sun-Thu, 11am-12midnight; Fri & Sat, 11am-1am

Pictures.

My pictures, if i do upload is my life through my eyes. I think moments are to be treasured. If our phones lose memory, they are deleted. So i rather upload it on the internet so it is not gone. This seems to be judged as to be vain . Oh well. this is what i have to face in order for me to keep my ways to survive alive. I do not live to please others. I am me. Dislike me? Fuck off. I rather be alone than have some low life around me.

UGH. Mid night rant. wtf man. go die and kill yourself darren

lol crazy thoughts.

Time to go sleep.

Short life

Well, im back to blogging which means.. its back to over thinking and no other ways of expressions. Unless through my typing.

I cannot handle it. I give up. And i do not want to live on this earth anymore. Everyone seems to find that one person who they are fated to be with. ME? FUCK IT. LOL.

Maybe im just the last one who will. And probably im just being dumb and only looking at this and not the other parts of my life. But i dont know anymore. I am very tired. So so so very tired.

People are making me more blur and lost everyday. Im so tired.

I just wanna give up. But i keep pushing on. Somebody gave me a reason to live. But that person just left my life.

I have no reason to live. I try to find and create it...but it is just so hard and impossible.

I know people will miss me. But why do i stay alive just cause of them? I do not find happiness in that. I do not find happiness in living. I CANNOT find happiness.

Would you forget me? Of course you would not.

But great artists only are known after they die.

Im not famous, im not someone known. People wont even remember i exist after this post.

Open that "words" document on my computer if one day i just disappear from your lives. If you notice.

Only true friends and people would know my password.

I'm gonna end this here. Crying myself to sleep as usual.